Because I miss worship.
These are a few of my favorites Worship Songs. Desert Song, Hungry, None but Jesus and Til I see your face.
I was dead inside. And now for the first time, I know what I’m meant to do with my life. And everything else, sll my quirks, my fears none of it matters, because I know who I am. - Grey’s Anatomy S07E04
I think the waiting has to end already. It’s really up for me now to take that leap. It’s time to finally use the courage I’ve been saving up.
I had to cut short my trip in Cebu and Bohol to attend the 10th Ateneo Student Leaders Assembly in Antipolo where I’m part of the core. I really didn’t have to go, but my ASLA experience back then when I was a participant was life-changing. I was hoping to learn more from this year’s congress.
During my ASLA experience, I learned to believe in myself and to go out of my comfort zone but that was it. But for this ASLA experience, it was life-ruining. Nasira ako.
And I have to put all the blame to the speakers and the participants. The brokenness that one of the speakers Sabs Ongkiko talked about and the brokenness that everyone left me is something that cannot be fixed. And they say that is how it should go. It’s not all about getting answers, but getting questions one after the other. It’s about realizing there is so much to do in this world. It’s about realizing that you are being called to help with the world’s deepest hunger.
Sabs Ongkiko, the speaker who touched me the most, was an Ateneo graduate who was ready to enter Med School. But someone invited her to a talk about education and being a teacher and from then on she felt there was something about teaching that moved her.
Now, she is a public grade school teacher in Culiat Elementary School for 3 years.
If you can only hear her speak. You’ll be blown away. I was crying the whole time. She speaks of her students with so much love. Get inspired as well, read more of her story here: Making a difference, 50 students at a time.
Maria Ressa, Anna Oposa, Jay Jaboneta were some of the speakers who was really passionate in their own fields and were making a difference. And I guess the fact that moved me the most, was knowing that these people were so passionate and in love with what they are doing. Anna Oposa’s love for the environment was so evident when she spoke. Even from the participants themselves. Jenica Dizon’s love for the ocean. Gigi De Villa’s love for her God, Management student’s plans for Social Entrep.. It’s really all about what we love, and it’s the best way to make a mark in society. Because we will get tired and get broken and fail.. but if it’s something we love, it will only keep us going.
And right now, I have more courage to pursue my plans in design. I’ve tried to push myself in becoming a doctor, or work in an NGO, or anything that I feel can help society more. I’ve tried to fool myself that my passion for designing is only a hobby, not something that can be part of my career. I tried to talk to people about my plans for a design for a cause organization and they tell me my eyes glitter when I talk about it. People tell me that it’s a good idea, but I still get so scared. And I’m glad that during the ASLA Congress, Ate Noreen quotes Libya President saying: ‘If you’re not scared, then your dream is not big enough.’
Where does this brokenness I speak of come in? The fact that we all have our own dreams for ourselves but something inside us tells us those dreams are not the dreams we are called to chase after. The reality in this world, or specifically in this country, is breaking us. Breaking us in a way that it is calling us to do something more: and that is to change it.
I am thankful for my ASLA family. I am thankful for this community of broken leaders who tries to make their heart’s deepest desire meet with the world’s deepest hunger, and gets the courage to pursue them.
Final Project for Fine Arts Elective. :) It was a great sem!